Is there somewhere that you go that leaves you breathless?  I hope so.  I hope it is not far away and that you get to visit often.  The place does not have to be the most beautiful place or the most majestic place or a palace for kings.  It could simply be your home when you walk in each time you have been away or at the end of the day and you look around at the accumulation of your life and say ‘thank you God this is good’.  It could be walking into the home of one of your children and being thankful as your breath is taken away by the joy of their happiness.   Or the breathless of walking into their home and seeing the grandchildren that are now part of your life.  This breathless feeling is best described as the occasional intake of joy that leaves you breathless with d88c307c-9266-476d-a8c1-b72ec8e82637.1amazement. It is an overwhelming feeling of wonderfulness.

The word feeling is a noun.  The meanings are below.

1. the function or the power of perceiving by touch.

2. physical sensation not connected with sight, hearing, taste, or smell.

3. a particular sensation of this kind: a feeling of warmth; a feeling of pain.

4. the general state of consciousness considered independently of particular sensations, thoughts, etc.

5. a consciousness or vague awareness: a feeling of inferiority.

As I read these it appears feelings cannot be planned.  From the descriptions above they are spontaneous.  The description in number 3 best describes what I feel.  That is what I am describing with the breathless a feeling of warmth and #4 includes the spontaneity.  It is a moment that just hits you and you take in a breath in joy, pleasure and amazement.  I am not talking the amazement of stupidity. I am focused on the joy and happiness on this dreary rainy Sunday.

Every time I walk into the Head of the Harbor Cottage I am breathless.  I am immediately filled with joy as I look around the small living space and kitchen.  I am home.  It is the home I had not ever dared to dream.  It is the home that was procured with a leap of faith and daring to dream the impossible.

Home is a noun as well.  The meanings are below.  My home is with my husband of course and the second meaning references that and I am glad it used the word affections.

1.a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.

2.the place in which one’s domestic affections are centered.

3.an institution for the homeless, sick, etc.: a nursing home.

4.the dwelling place or retreat of an animal.

5.the place or region where something is native or most common.

It is the last two that come to mind when I think of this cottage.  It has been a retreat of sorts for me in my native area.  I love it.  I walk in here and all care seems to melt away even though my to do list is long.  Even when it was just a one bedroom ramshackle shack.

The history of this place is probably part of the happiness.  I had been talking with a friend, a teacher and the mother of one of our daughters best friends.  She was talking about investing and buying land and property and getting ahead.  I was a stay at home mom and going through some self worth issues in that I brought no money into the house.  I think I’ve mentioned the growth of a woman’s movement that said we all had to be equal.  A stay at home mom is equal to what?  I decided we needed to invest in property and since we were going to retire to my home area it seemed logical to buy something there.  It was an island and they were not making any more land up there.

We looked for a couple of years actually.  The realtor that we went with was the only one that kept in touch with us even when we did not call her.   She knew what we were looking for and that we had little money.  When this place came on the market we looked at it and we were not wowed yet it would be perfect for our needs to rent it to pay for itself, give us a small tax deduction and make it work for us until we could live in it ourselves.

It has done everything we planned and more.  We now use it on the shoulder seasons of summer rentals.  We use it as much as we can.  I more than anyone else as I have the freedom to come and go as my ‘job’ has no time requirements.

ef8506d2-8e53-4e2e-9297-3d16d2c08f0b.1Every time I walk in here all that history floods me as I look at the home we have created from four walls and open windows that were left after hurricane Gloria had gone through in 1986.  I am filled with love of memory of my very cautious husband trusting my instincts and saying yes ‘offer them $500 more and please stop crying’.  I am flooded with the thought that my grandfather used to live up two doors down.  My dad as a young child played in these fields.  I lived across the street as a toddler.  We cut Christmas trees in my youth from part of the acreage that we now own with this cottage.  It all comes back to me as I feel, almost physically, a blanket being placed around my shoulders to shelter me from the cold.  My feet are on earth that has had connection to my family from way back.  I am home.  This time truly as I am not alone.  My husband has taken time to come with me.  We have work to do to prepare for the summer rentals yet last night as we sat on the couch with a small fire in the woodstove all was well and I was completely home, body and heart.

Now we hope that our rental season is filled with lovely people.  Thus far we have a family coming from Maryland who have not ever been in New England before.  In fact they have only been in our country for 20 years arriving from China.  Another is a family from the Midwest.  They have not ever booked through homeaway.com and were a bit concerned about the process.  I tried to simplify it.  We also have our special Liz and Ken who are from Maryland as well and they will be coming back for the sixth year in a row.  This is one lovely couple and we even met them one Thanksgiving.

We have 8+ weeks left to book.  It is my hope that we do.  Yes of course I want the defray our costs.  More though I want people to come to share our ‘home’.  Not only this building, even more the island of Mount Desert and Acadia National Park.  Some of the most spectacular vistas I know.  Then again I may be biased.

view from the porch

view from the porch

television area

television area

Commercial break – if you are interested in booking a week at this cottage please go to homeaway.com #318828!  Here are some pictures that take my breath away.  You may believe  that it does not take much to make me breathless.  I hope you now understand that while this cottage is very comfortable and welcoming, breathless is more than simply the building.



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