Before I go into my subject this morning I have to apologize for my rant yesterday as well as ask for your forgiveness.  I simply dumped my angst without care expecting you to read it.  For that I am sorry and hope you can forgive my callousness.   The day did improve once I made my ‘Blessing’ list.  Well until last night when I wrote this whole post and then lost it.  I could not find the copy even with a ‘search’.  Perhaps I needed to re-write it anyway.

Yesterday morning as I was writing my ‘Blessings’ list I received a call from people I consider a blessing.  I was invited to share in some news they were creating.  They were changing some things in their life with the end result that we may not see each other as often as we would have had they not made the decision they did.  I was very sad to hear this news.  On the other hand with their lack of participation we might see them more often.  Regardless the world will feel a loss from this choice while at the same time the world may just experience a larger impact from them in a different way.

I am a big believer in the butterfly effect as I have shared before.  No man is an island entire unto himself wrote John Donne in his poem “For whom the Bell Tolls”.  It is one of my favorite poems.  I share it with you and the additional information I found that it was a meditation and prose!

For whom the bell tolls a poem

(No man is an island) by John Donne

No man is an island,

Entire of itself.
Each is a piece of the continent,
A part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less.
As well as if a promontory were.
As well as if a manor of thine own
Or of thine friend’s were.
Each man’s death diminishes me,
For I am involved in mankind.
Therefore, send not to know
For whom the bell tolls,
It tolls for thee.

These famous words by John Donne were not originally written as a poem – the passage is taken from the 1624 Meditation 17, from Devotions Upon Emergent Occasions and is prose.

Yesterday afternoon I found myself in tears at my desk.  The day was slogging along so I decided to become proactive and write my blog early.  Before I began I thought I would visit some other blogs I like.

I went to iamrising.wordress.com.  I like the energy this young girl leaves on the page.  I’ve mentioned her before.  I know nothing other than her name is April.  She has a friend, Oleg Volk, who takes great pictures of her and her bald head.  Maybe she is suffering from cancer?  She supported Ron Paul then Gary Johnson.  She lives around Nashville, struggles with bulimia and drugs.  She is into good nutrition and the Ayurveda way of living which I had heard about at the spa.  Her writing and use of words is terrific and her blogsite is visually appealing.

I went to see what was going on with her and received the message:

iamrising.wordpress.com is no longer available

I broke out into tears.  Where was she?  Had she lost her struggle to drugs?  I went back to try finding her through a google search.  All I could find was a November post reference called ‘Slew the Daydream Won the Nightdream’ with the following:

Nov 28, 2012 – It’s something like day 10 now since my last “high” (after the first few months, I could hardly notice it as a high anymore,) after a 4 year daily life.

When I clicked on this I got the same no longer available message.  I was heartbroken.  What had happened to this vibrant young girl.  I cried again.

I went to save my work and lost every single word.  I stopped for the day.  I had no idea why all this had happened until this morning when I tried to find her again this time through a bing search.  I discovered another blogger ‘Veritaze’ wrote in his blog on Dec. 10th that he was looking for her as well.  I only hope she is well and has chosen simply to no longer blog.  Perhaps she is on to another blog with a different name?

No man is an island.  ‘iamrising’ touched many people.  I am going to look for her again later.  In the meantime I am praying she is well and onto her own new misadventures.


trivia:  bing had more information when I searched than google – found this interesting and may have to use bing more often!!!


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